I gain every day..yet I lost daily

Everybody encouraged me while I got scholarship to pursue my Masters.My wife agreed she will manage everything at home. My mother told me,It is an opportunity that comes only sometime and my colleagues feel I deserve and need to pursue. So, I was convinced.

It took me time to decide yet the decision still remain questionable today.  I am not sure, what future lies ahead?. But for sure I can say at this moment that everything is not that simple as we perceive.It sucks our blood and we remain helpless.

Though I gain daily it makes me feel i am loosing something every day.